regret

i thought knowing her is the best feeling in the world . but i'm mistaken . again . at first , i thought she was a really hard-core person . like me n the rest . meaning no hard2 feeling la .. if we mad at each other , the feeling would last only till night . tomorrow the days goes on like usual . thats us . but her . made me regret . i'd never knew this person inside of her . very sensitive and emo kind of girl . one day , i'd made amistake . a mistake i really regret it . mistake that i never thought of it at first . i know she would get mad at me . but what i dont know she pissed at me . not just mad . she stumpd her stuff . i never saw her really mad like that in my life . especially to ME . i saw her tears , i hear her problems , i even knew when she's angry at something @ somebody . but ..... i never saw her mad at me . i felt my tears are just gonna burst out . but i'm just hold it to myself . i never thought she would go that far . hw could her mad at me like that . yes , i confess , i made a mistake . but it was a MISTAKE . i thought the very far she can do was just sat quietly and dont want 2 talk to me 4 a few hours . but i'm wrong again . she stumped her stuff . back at home when i'm really alone , i burst into tears . really hard . hw could of her mad at ME like that ..  i dont know thts y i made a mistake . she never asked . she never asked WHY i could've done that . at least i can explain things . i dont know . but , hey , thats jst her . i'd discovered another side of her now . she's very complexed person in a complexed mind . i know i never can undrstand her 100% , but i still love her . she's my besties wht .. what u expect?

p/S : everybody is perfect in their own way

bila diri dah terlalu sygkan diri sendiri

as-salam .
ak dah rasa org yg mcm ak sbot kat atas dah masok dalam list ciri2 org yg aku x suka . terlalu syg diri sendiri ataupun sng nak sembang pentingkn diri . Memang lah org selalu cakap , pentingkn diri bertempat . tapi , bila tempat tu dah xkena bagi orang lain , xsempoi gak mcm tu . bila dah terlalu sayangkan diri sendiri , mana peduli apa yg orang lain rasa dah . ak rasa mungkin keturunan . (HA.HA.HA. lwk sgt lah tu) . tapi betul apa . sebab aku tetiba nak post benda2 mcm ni sbb ak geram . sebab ak ckp based on xperiences. ak ni pulak nak marah , kenal lama dah . ak tahu reaksi dia macam mana bila aku marah dia . or kalau aku cakap aku terasa dengan dia , dia akan defend diri dia ja . xpernah rasa nak minx maaf or watever . marah aku ni pon kejap ja . tapi yg jadi kejap tu bila orang yang buat slah dengan kita cepat2 minx maaf . tak apa , aku akn tros ignore pasal marah2 tu , bila dengar suara orang tu . member sendiri kot . sapa x syg membe oi ... tapi tu lah ... liat betol mulut dia nak sebot perkataan SORRY tu . bukannya kena bayar pon . oh , mungkin ego dia tercalar bila dia sebot perkataan tu . ak xboleh nak kata apa kat dia , sebab aku yg akan kalah bila aku try marah dia . tu baru try , belum betol2 marah . ak xsuka gadoh2 , sapa suka? sebab aku memang dah masak sehangit-hangitnya la perangai si polan ni. nak marah , x sampai hati . so , better i'll keep my mouth shut and let the wind blew it away .


p/S : sometimes we get too possesive with something or someone we don't even own . It's a side effect of loving too much ... and receiving too little